mistake

theres a mistake about that message. bukan aku yg nak send benda alah tu. seriously, aku takkan nak send benda2 macam tu. and for people yg dapat that msg, you shouldn't bagi orang lain baca. heh. whatever it is, i know the truth. so fk everything said behind me. too tired to care. pegi mati lah orang nak cakap apa.


p/s : i think im losing my friends. bye

pengetahuan untuk kau

"I'll never forget our late night phone calls, our cute texts, or any of the time we spent together, but it's time to move on." -Tumblr

Thank you for knowing me very very well. you know how to handle me, you know how i felt, you can predict how i will react in some situation, you know so many things about me. You're still, one of the person that i can only trust. with all my heart. Thank you for being that person.

coretan pagi buta

I wonder why am i still awake at this hour? sepatutnya time2 camni mmg dah harapan nusa bangsa nak tengok aku masih bangun, tak tidur lagi. tipulah kalau kata tak mengantuk, kan. tapi entah lah macam malas rasa nak tidur. mungkin aku tunggu seseorang which is aku pun taktau siapa? atau mungkin aku mengada-ngada? atau mungkin,... ahhh biarlahhhh! di waktu begini aku ingin mengucapkan terima kasih. (oh tolong jangan cakap aku tidak waras. alhamdulillah, aku masih) ya, terima kasih kepada salah seorang yg aku rasa dia kawan aku. sebab dia buat aku sedar. sedar yg aku sedang buat perkara yg salah, perkara yg tidak sepatutnya aku buat dan perkara ni sepatutnya dah selesai beberapa bulan yg lalu. tapi, tanpa disedari, aku yg sebenarnya yg buat perkara ni jadi sampai tahap macamni. haih, kenapa bodoh sangat. nasihat orang bukan main lagi, sampai kat diri sendiri, tak sedar. (cakap memang senang, kan?) ok tapi takpe sebab sekarang aku dah sedar. yeayy! dan sejak kawan aku tu sedarkan aku, sejujurnya memang aku sedih tapi aku lega. aku dah tahu apa yg aku patut buat. walaupun tak ada kesan pada orang lain, tapi untuk diri aku, kesannya amat besar. ianya boleh mengubah jiwa dan hati aku yg selama ini masih terperangkap dengan kisah lama. mulai sekarang, biarlah kisah itu terkubur dalam otak aku. atau mungkin juga otak dia. dia yg tidak lagi seperti dia yg dulu. tapi tak apa, semua orang berubah. termasuk aku. kita mulakan kisah baru, memang tak akan dapat sama dengan kisah yg lama, tapi kita boleh buat kisah yg lebih baik. itu harapan aku yg baru. aku rasa tidak keterlaluan kan, walaupun tidak mudah?  Alhamdulillah, Allah beri petunjuk. Sekian.


p/s : jangan tanya kenapa aku tulis macam ni. aku pun tak tahu kenapa. faktor masa mungkin.

decision

Yes, its hard for me tapi kan i rather move on than i lost my friend. Eventhough macam tiba tiba macam ni, tapi ntah lah rasanya this is the time. Kalau tak sampai bila kan. I always tell people that everything is fine, semua benda jadi ada reason, kalau benda nak jadi, dia akan jadi and bla bla. Now i realize that i even cant do that. yes, i motivate myself but its not enough kot because of this thing so called 'hope'. That thing yg buat stuck. Ishhhh go away lahhhh 'hope'. So yeah, benda benda tu semua is my past. let bygone be bygone. And start a new chapter. Thats the best i can do. I think i'm going to get over it and live my life with joy and happiness for both dunia and akhirat. Wish me luck. Hello again, sara. InsyaAllah. Bismillahirrahmanirrahim..... :)

what i need?

cuti ni tinggal berapa hari je. :/ seriously i dont feel like going back to dungun again. nak duduk rumah lagi. nak tidur lambat, bangun lambat, lepak, drive and all. cuti ni macam sekejap sgt je :( hmmm. theres only 1 thing that i cant wait to do when im in dungun is, i can meet shaza everyday. yes, thats the ONLY thing. yg lain tu biasa biasa je. idk why, but i just feel so complete when im with her. thank you to her for every single thing she made for me. oh haaaa sambung pasal cuti, taknak balik lagi. haha sebab nanti kena pack barang, pastu kat sana kena duduk rumah sewa lagi. damn. i need something, but i dont really know what it is.


p/s : is it love? Oh tidak mungkinnnnnnn!!!!! hahahahaha

-.-

can we like turn back time or anything? ahaha seriously i need to do that. :( oh hm, teringat cerita the vow, bila fikir balik, actually they had chance to fall in love again kan. seriously lucky gila! hm memang if its meant to be, it will be lah kan. and now i just live my life and follow the flow. okay sebenarnya taktau nak cakap apa. bored to the max. okay bla bla bla i want 2008, bla bla bla or maybe somewhere in 2011 and bla bla bla. ok bye.

someone random

Last two days, i think, i was on the phone with someone. someone yg sgt lah random, rasanya baru 2nd time kot cakap dgn dia lama lama. haha okay takpelah, apa nak cerita sekarang, after dah otp dengan dia, seriously he reminds me of someone. someone that i used to be with, before. we were otp for like 1h plus tak ingat sgt, hehe i feel so comfortable with him. we shared so many things, stories and all and the best part is, we are in the same condition. but i think he already felt for someone else. :/ and im like....okayyyy *walk away* hahahahahhaa ok joking. bodoh bodoh jelah aku ni haha. oh haaaaa! lepastu kan, ada lagi, memang benda ni, sumpah sama dengan my before this, bila nak letak phone tu kan, ya allah, susah gilaaaaaa. cakap bye brpa puluh kali, wish goodnight pun brpa bnyk kali taktau. pastu masing masing taknak letak phone dulu. omg, the memories still fresh in my mind. i just cant. ergh. so yeah, i feel soooooo comfortable with him. idk why i always fall for someone that i can't have. oh dear heart, please dont do this.


Allah, give me strength. Amiiiinn.

that 'thing'

i still had one of your stuff with me. i bring it where ever i go. pergi class apa smua, mesti ada benda tu. tapi haritu macam mana ntah, i checked my bag then benda tu tak adaaaaaaaa. its gone! dah cari semua tempat tapi tak ada. dah lah tu je satu benda kau punya yg ada kat aku. kalau ada benda tu, i feel like you always with me no matter what. tapi benda tu tak ada. i literally cried bila tahu benda tu dah takda. :'( i have to find it ! i dont know whats wrong with me, but i just need that 'thing'. :/

blog letter

to : someone so called love.
from : me

Awak, study elok elok tau. kalau nak buat something, think about your future, your parents, your dreams. yes, dreams can come true kalau kita motivate diri kita to achieve that dreams. i still remember, apa awak nak jadi besar nanti. its good for you to have that kind of ambition. tapi kena ingat juga, kalau kita ada ambition tinggi, tapi takda effort ke arah tu, benda tu tak ke mana kan. your dream is waiting for you, so its your choice to make your dream come true or just let it be a dream. i think its still not too late. you can study harder starting from now. im sure, your parents will be the happiest person on earth kalau dia tgk awak success in your life. :) *well, i think semua parents macam tu kan,including mine* so yeah, i know you can do it. you are smart! you need to know that. Whatever it is, i just want you to know that i'll always support you from behind. Always. I dont want you to feel like you're alone, theres no one for you or wtv. I'll always here, for you. and i do care about you. Take care. Xx

sincerely, sara.


p/s : note to self and others ;)

13 November

Birthday shout out to my beloved room mate, Najiha Ghafi. May Allah bless you, and have a great day with your loved ones. hihi im glad that i met you. kita tidur, makan, mandi, gaduh, share stories and everything all together. rindu gila ok pagi pagi bangun nak tengok muka korang. hehe you'd thought me so many things, yg paling penting, jadi heartless! hahahaha and now i am strong enough to face problems. *kot* haha but whatever, thanks to you! :) haaa eventhough, cuti ni jiha cam kerek kerek nak jumpa, contact apa semua en, haha tapi takpelah, sebab sara tau, jiha rindu sara. hohohohohoho ok tipu je. :p I just want you to know that whatever happen, you are one of my best room mates, ever. I love you, and always will. Hugs&Kisses ♥

lotsa love,sara!

tanya lahhh,

oh ni haaa nak bagitau, sukahati lah korang nak tau ke tak, tapi saja je nak bagitau, i already had an ask.fm account. ceyyyyy bajet artis mana je. padahal takde sape pun nk tau hahahaha. ah tak kisah lah. asal aku happy. haaa ni url dia, https://ask.fm/saraansr cehhhh nak bold kan pahal en. hm bagi orang nampak lahhh. hahaha. tujuan dia untuk sesiapa yang tak berani nk tanya soalan depan2, boleh lah tanya apa2 kat situ. jangan merepek sudah. kalau ada lah kan org nak tanya, kalau takde, takpe. kita boleh tanya diri sendiri. eheheh k bye!

fikir

macam mana kita nak tahu whether someone yg kita tunggu tu is worth for waiting? how long does it takes? nanti kalau pasrah, malas nak fikir, heartless semua, tetiba ada lah pula sesiapa muncul. then did the same thing again. haih. susah juga. taknak kahwin ah camni *eh,tiba jaaaa! hahaha ok bye

result

So, today i woke up sebab Iffaaaaa kejutkan! pagi pagi dah tanya pasal result. orang dah lupa pun pasal result tu harini. hahaha so yeah, since iffa pun dah tanya so tak sabar lah jugak nak tau dapat berapa. oh before that, tgk twitter, semua orang dah "alhamdulillah" "dapat dean's list" lah bagai. wuish cuak gak ah kan masa tuuuuuu. pastu bukak email, shaking gila nak scroll bawah tgk result. pastu, tengok tengok result, Alhamdulillah lah, mencapai lah jugak target tu :) my target is taknak repeat next sem and make my parents satisfied of me. so cukup lah tu. ahaha Harap harap lepasni boleh maintain. InsyaAllah.Amiiiin. For all UiTM student, congratulations ! ;)

p/s : nak tau result, tanya sendiri. personally. hahaha ok bye. tapi takdelah pandai mana pun. heh

sama

Eventhough dah 5 hari dalam bulan november, tapi, nak bagitau jugak, I still wish for the same thing for this month. and even for every month. Hello november :)



ehhh baik buat wish untuk setahun terus kan kalau dah wish benda yang sama every month, every week, every day. ahaha wtv.

siapa?

waiting for august maybe? :) i hope its worth it.

mimpi

and again, i dreamt about you. hm apakah ini semuaaa? false hope? oh mungkin benda tidak menjadi seperti yang diharapkan, but atleast something better than now. Allah knows better.