perangai

boleh tak kau tukar cara fikir kau dulu before kau nak suruh orang lain buat. buang jelah weh perangai ego kau yg menggunung tu, pastu jangan nak suruh orang asyik ikut cakap kau je. aku rasa patut ah aku tak boleh dgn kau sebab mesti orang selalu ikut cakap kau apa semua kan, sampai dekat aku, kau nak suruh aku buat macam tu mmg tak dapat ah. haha aku rasa kau yg typical minded. jgn nak cakap orang. and takpayah nak buat alasan, "dah memang perangai aku macamni, nak buat macamana" dudeeeeee, kalau perangai tak elok, boleh berubah kan? kalau dah ramai orang cakap kau macamtu, tolong lah sedar and ubah lah sikit even tak banyak. bukannya benda nak berubah jadi lagi jahat. kalau kau teruskan macamni, jgn tanya kenapa lah orang tak boleh nak ok dgn kau. oh kalau kau kata orang atau sesapa kawan2 kau takpernah tegur kau perangai mcmtu, haaa pandai2 ah pilih kawan. sebab kalau betul member, dia akan tegur kau to be better. tu baru betul 'true friends'.

sorry ah aku cakap kat sini sebab aku dah banyak dengar orang cerita pasal aku, tgk2 dari kau. aku dah kata, kalau takpuas hati, bgtau depan2. masalah between you and me takpayah nak cerita kat orang lain lah. now since kau pun takbgtau aku depan, hm mmg aku tulis kat sini ah. aku tak kisah kau baca ke tak, sukahati kau. kbye.

lalala

okay ni nak cerita just now i watched maria elena's highlight majlis pernikahan and also her story with her husband now. omg seriously i can cry tengok that video sebab comel gila tahap kuasa 10juta. they were in love for like 4 years and lastly, kahwin. ok thats the most important! i wanna be like them too. T-T

why?

kenapa kita selalu suka dekat orang yang tak suka kita?

kenapa kita selalu suka dekat someone pada waktu yang salah?

kadang kadang the right time, but not the right person.

kenapa kita suka dekat orang yang sakit kan hati kita?
kenapa orang datang dan pergi? (tak boleh ke stay je?)

kenapa kenapa kenapa?

siblings

okay lama dah tak update tapi taklah lama mana pun kan. but wtv. who cares bukan ada org baca pungggg. lol. so rasanya harini mcm nak cerita pasal siblings. i know i dont have any of them. i dont have sisters and brothers. Sebab takda lah nak cerita ni. haha I admit that i really jealous with whom yg ada siblings. lagi lagi diorang yg rapat dgn siblings diorang. From my experience, bila orang cerita pasal adik dia ke kakak ke abang ke or siapa2 lah adik beradik dia, sumpah jealous! its like they have someone that they can talk to whenever they want, someone they can rely on, someone they can fully trust. seriously, people always said that even i dont have siblings but i have my cousin because people who know me, they'll know that im quite closed with them. but thennn, my cousin pun already had their siblings, so of course lah diorang akan lagi rapat dgn adik beradik diorang, kan. so for me, still its not the same. cousin is cousin and sibling is sibling. tak ke rasa macam bila diorang cerita adik beradik then kita nak sibuk. eventhough satu family tapi rasa mcm krikrik lah jugak kan. ahaha oh haa lepastu, for example kalau kita kena marah dgn parents ke kan, atleast they can go to their siblings utk cerita2 ke apa. and me? no one. furthermore, me as a girl, mesti malam malam kita nak share story or wtv kan. haa selalunya orang cerita kat siblings lagi2 yg ada kakak tu kan. me? no one. haha cousin bukan duduk dgn kita all the time pun. so yeah...

People usually said, kalau siapa yg takda siblings ni mostly apa dia nak parents dia bagi, takya share barang dgn org lain apa smua. yes, i admit mmg benda2 tu betul juga sebab kalau tak bagi kat anak nak bagi kat siapa lagi kan. haha but i dont take that thing as an important thing, because material ni tak penting pun sebenarnya. i rather have many siblings than kaya raya sampai raya dua kali. because i always think, if my parents passed away, siapa je yg ada dgn kita? material bukan boleh tolong kita pun. so basically i have no one. sedih juga bila terfikir about that. i really wish i have one. atleast kakak ke abang ke sorang pun dah okay. tapi tak apa, this is what we called qada' and qadar. I never blame anyone lagipun ni kan Allah yg tentukan so i always keep in mind that He has a better plan for me and everything happens for a reason.

For those yg ada siblings tu, i rasa you guys must be grateful to have siblings. tak kisah lah berapa ramai, rapat ke, setiap hari gaduh ke apa, because in the end, they are the one that always have time for you. omg panjang gila mcm buat karangan tapi sadly my karangan never get an A. -.- haha i should stop here. till then. take care!

p/s : patutlah iffa cakap aku buat karangan. hahaha :p

2nd semester

okay so 2nd semester had started about a few days ago. Alhamdulillah everything went well. taaaapi kan 2nd class of 2nd day dah takpergi class. which is microeconomic's class hehehe. lepak dalam bilik shaza sampai tertidur sampai terskip class. Like a boss lah sikit kan. hehe so far lecturer semua okay. Pad170 and pad190 quite interesting. oh yg paaaling takut rasanya micro and account. account sbb mmg dari spm mcm krikrik. pastu micro mcm takpernah study, tgk soalan pun mcm susah. but ni for mula2, harapnya dah lama nanti okay lah semua. :)

this sem juga i have to duduk rumah sewa sebab kenapa entah tak dapat kolej setelah beberapa kali minta rayuan so rasanya pn dah malas. duduk rumah sewa ni pun not bad juga, good for experience how to manage house and all. i stay with iffa and kawan dia, teyra. and others tu baru kenal since masuk rumah sewa which is zira, kak nisa and hanis. so far tak ada masalah lagi. harapnya takkan ada lah problem tu :D

what else eh, oh haaa about class! i stay with the same class and also with the same lovely person. dengan shaza tu is a must! eventhough takdir menentukan yg dia dapat college and i didn't. tapi benda tu bukan penghalang. cewahhhhh. hahaha

untuk 2nd sem ni i still hope for the same target. i hope i can reach it. InsyaAllah. :)